I Want A White Christmas

This is dumb...how come when I was so bogged down with exams, I keep reverting to all the online stuffz to do random nothing. Now that I have all the time in the world, nothing online entices me much. Well, other than watching GG and getting my hands on tv progs and movies to fill up my barren ipod.

I recalled searching a whole bunch of shops for Home Alone 1 and 2 VCDs. And it was at this particular period, coincidentally, of days when we are all in the celebratory mood, of days leading up to the upcoming festivities (particularly christmas and new year). I wasn't able to get my hands on any Macauly Culkins original which was kinda depressing coz I'd always anticipate for those movies to come on TV for everytime the christmas season arrives. A classic christmas movie I shall say and somehow the TV no longer shows 'em, probably for being outdated.

Anyhow, my bro eventually downloaded the two movies (forget all the other Home Alone sequels NOT starring MC, it's not half as good) and now I have them in my ipod and god knows how many times I've watched 'em, from January and throughout this whole year. Now that the christmas season is here, I do not need to go on a scavenger hunt anymore. Coz I already have them movies in my possesion and unfortunately, I think I've gotten so sick and tired of 'em. I guess now, I should be looking out for other worthwhile christmas movies, something as good as Home Alone. Christmas With The Kranks is not bad ayyy, and I actually have them in my video collection.

I have finally restarted my exercising regime and it hasn't been pleasant. Jogging on the pavement around my neighbourhood was so painful, I kept going on walking lapses for so many times. And the whole distance barely covered two kilometres. And when I took it to the stadium after the warm up, five rounds were horribly impossible. All it took was for me to not exercise for just a few months and that's it, I'm a goner. Bleahhhh. Coz of all that, my whole body's aching and I do have half a mind to give up. Yeah, like put on more weight and take out all the oversize wears which I had set aside as keepsakes, so that I can wear them already. Hah!

Damn the weighing scale. The past three years must have been the worse relapse I'll ever put myself through (not that I'd wanna do it again!). A total of TEN KILOS?! I am sooperrr nuts! So I lost thirty kg only to pile back on a ten. I should have lost another ten and I would have been a sixty by now. Arggghhhh. HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE THE WORKING WORLD? Damn they should make TAF compulsory for life. At least all those mockery and discrimination and unsubtle underlying criticism (even though it sucks big time) got me to work my ass off. Duhhhh. Now back to square one. I hope I can finally learn how to swim and cycle (gasp! yeah I'm turning 21 and I still don't know how to cycle a two wheel bike) so that it won't have to be boring jogging forever.

That aside, I finally cleaned my room, updated my jogtunes, extorted some money (lol!), etc etc. Till then, I wanna win $600,000 and lose ten kg. Double PHWOAR!

And by the way, it's my dad's birthday today! Hehe.

Messed Up

MY ROOM IS IN A HUGE MESSSSS!

Really, I've tons of junks strewn across my bedroom floor, on my study (no more studying!) desk and my bed and under my bed and my bookshelf is too cluttered, etc etc. Sushi containers and the soy sauce spilling in a plastic bag, random receipt prints which may give me a heart attack if I am to add up all the figures, that few school bags I've yet to unpack and repack, my bed piled with clean laundry and the garbage accumulated from the day's shopping, the unwashed pullover which smells so horrible, styrofoam from the pasar malam octopus ball, popcorns. AND IT'S BEEN AEONS SINCE I LAST VACUMMED CLEAN MY ROOM. So I shall not bother pick out all the micro (screw econs!) junks.

Basically my room is in a disastrous state. Everytime I planned to clear up the mess, something just gotta crop up. And when I've nothing to do, I can't seems to make myself do the cleaning. Plop down in front of the comp, Ugly Betty and Gossip Girl....here I come! Bleah. And how many times must I mention Gossip Girl? Seriously, it's a disease. But I'm NOT alone. Nah-uhhh. Coz I was flipping through Cleo and apprently GG is the "TV series we can't wait to hit our screens". See! I have been on the RIGHT TRACK all along. And by the time GG hits our shore, I hope I would have completed watching the entire series. I wish. Unless the WGA strike gets in the way and GG is left stranded in mid air. I hope not.

I need to find a job. Coz my mum decidedly cut off this month's allowance. Thank god I'd actually saved a plenty during the last few months. Well, I may have to resort to extortion. If things gets too drastic that is. Haha. Annoying lah my mum. But she says the money's meant for our holiday to wherever. Whatever. I'm hoping to head over to KL for my annual food festival (it's an OFFICIAL EVENT hokay.). Road side foodstuffs and everything else that are HALAL.

Yeah, I'm too particular I guess. Coz I still have not gotten over the stupid chicken rice affair. I'd though it was just the humble chicken rice not until I found out that the shop selling that damn chicken rice (as I found out later on) also specialises in PORK RICE. Crap. Thanks ehh, to those morons who pretended not to understand that I CANNOT eat anything/anywhere tainted with un-halal stuffz. Though I'd have myself to blame too coz I didn't ask where they'd gotten the chicken rice. BUT still! It was during one of the school days ok! Ugh.

Anyhow, I have successfully gone to bed much earlier and woke up early the next morning. But the consistency is not there. As in I'd successfully do it for a couple of days and then for the next few days I'd only fall asleep at three and wake up at around eleven. Retarded. So I'm gonna try again today.

For more carefree days to come...!

Sidenote: I wanna win the $600,000. Phwoar!

Post-Exam BandAids

My bedroom feels so much more comfortable after I'd change the bedspread to a more colourful one. The one I had for Hari Raya was really terrible, not to mention, I was lacking one pillow case and a bolster case. So it was crap-oh. And I really really wanna bring down the deep red curtain, I don't quite like it at all. Argh!

Anyway, I have been planning to paint my room in stripes. Just paint it over the current peach (more like light orange) walls I have. But that is gonna need tons of preparation coz I'm gonna have to measure the walls and divide them up into equal columns, put up the masking tapes and then PAINT! At this, I'm only visualising ONE side of the wall. Imagine doing it for two sides...gonna be damn tiring. Hah.

Had actually taken the time yesterday to borrow some books from the library. I was supposed to meet up my cousins there before we head off for a movie, so I thought I mights as well borrow some books. Zeroed-in on the new Fearless series which seems so much more exciting than the high-school one. Apparently Gaia Moore decided to join the FBI, so now the plots seemed very much CSI-like and its places are rather unpredictable, unlike the previous books which featured villains centred around the NY area and its central park. Oh, I actually got to know about Krispy Kreme through these books by the way. Haa.

After checking out our books, me and my cousins headed over to tamp CS for our movie. As intended, we bought tickets for Bratz. I guess after watching several episodes of Gossip Girl, Bratz fared rather poorly in my opinion. It's like the girls on B seems rather unreal despite the storyline evolving around issues that we can relate to, whereas the girls on GG portrays a more convincing outlook of what youngsters lives are really like, though the storyline evolves too much around scandalous affairs and all the glitz and glamour. I guess it can be concluded that B is really meant for the younger set ayyy. Hmmm.

Annnddd finally, I bought Celine Dion's and Carrie Underwood's latest albums each. So far, progress hasn't really been good. It's like I'm only stuck to just a song from each album and I refuse to budge. Lol.

So there you have it, life after the As is really blissful. Wait till reality catches up with me. Till then...

Blockhead

It's been more than a week since I got myself the latest BSB album and yet I've not talked about it. Ooopffff. Anyway, I gotta say that the new album is brilliant, it's like there's some sorta rock edge to their songs now, it's like a refreshing change. Ironically, I pretty much prefer their tunes now as compared to those 90s period where the songs were mostly upbeat pop-ish and even though I got hooked to them coz of their past works. Hmmm. There's this particular song which I can't seems to stop playing on my ipod, Treat Me Right. Very much like My Beautiful Woman from the last album. The songs that stands out much. Then there are the usual sappy stuffz which are really the reason why I've always been a huge fan of BSB. Heh. Wokay, overall the latest album's good stuff and I can't wait for the next album already.

And....as usual the music industry aims to wreck me down for good coz it seems that most of my favourite singers are coming up with new albums all at about the same time. Damn, where do I get that much money to buy all their works?! I would really wanna refrain from downloading them illegally but I don't think I can spare that much money for around five albums (probably more) all at once. Duh.

Ohhhh, I have been following subsequent episodes of Gossip Girl religiously. It's a really good show, with tons of pretty outfits, and pretty pretty girls. Well, I do realize it's probably one of the most superficial tv programme around but it's worth the bite (or click?). And Ugly Betty season 2 is out also, I watched the first few episodes and I just think that the take-off for season 2 is rather lukewarm and anti-climatic. Somehow the dramatic events happened in a knee-jerk fashion and it all ends too fast. Maybe there's gonna be a major climax somewhere in the middle of the season. Well I sure hope so. Oh, and channel 5 is now showing Veronica Mars 2. Yeah, ONLY NOW ayyy. Hmmph.

Omg, I can't wait for the exams to be over. Argh! I wanna hit rock number one a.s.a.p. I'd already gotten a spiral notebook with black blank pages and I'm gonna write on it with a silver pen. Now now, why do I sound so methodical. Haha. The thing is I've been staring at the black pages and nothing seems to inspire me. Yesterday, awhile ago. I don't quite know what am I gonna have to write. For now there's only a lyric to one of my favourite songs, a draft for my friend's birthday card and JustMyConsciences. Ohhhh, let the creative juice flowwwwwwww.

Kereta Kerbau

How could I ever think that the As is the biggest ever mistake in my life? When all that can be concluded is that I brought it all up to myself. I was the ambitious one, too keen on wanting to achieve my so-called desirable way of life. A sense of fulfillment meant to mislead me, and one that I can never ever achieve. Right, I should have known, I am mostly delusional.

What the exams has brought upon me is endless anxiety, sleepless nights, my mind working a cyclone, not daring to shut off the light when I go to bed, abundance of junkfood slithering down my throat like some sorta addictive drugs and total social awkwardness.

Really, some neighbours should just mind their own business and not make it seem like what's worrying my parents are nothing to them. They can just shut the hell up because their presence have never been appreciated anyway. And no, it's not a whole group of them. Just one insignificant whatever who thinks that she's the most influential human being on planet earth.

I would definitely wanna migrate to the moon once I'm done. But that's too far-fetched. I'd just like to move somewhere else for that matter. I think what I need is a new environment. Far from those prying eyes of annoying neighbours. Coz I've been living in the very same neighbourhood, same housing estate, same bloody apartment for most of my life. That sums up twenty odd years.

And at the rate my mum explodes for everytime people around here irritates her, it only shows that it's time for us to pack up and move somewhere else. When people here becomes common story in your life they THINK they understands you inside out when they DON'T, it has become a fatal place to live in. I don't think they will bother to help when my family's in trouble coz all they ever do is yakkk their heads off thinking that they know everything in this godamned world.

I will get out of exams hell in less than a week and I'd be so relieved. Of course there are the buts somewhere out there. Just because exam's over, it does not mean I'm totally off the hook ayyy. But whatever, I just wanna get it over and done with, and when it ends, I'm gonna bury this godforsaken phase of my life a few hundred feet underneath this world. And I'm NEVER gonna talk to my grandchildren about it, ever. Yeah, W-T-F all you want. Hah.

In the meantime, I'll try to survive expo and coffee bean and the endless amount of junkfood I've readily submitted myself to. At least for this week, there's this import car show thingy going on. Alright, pardon my in-exactness (is there sucha word?). It's basically an exhibition of some of the hottest cars from the whole wide world. But I think not, coz I doubt that they have a hot pink seven series retractable hard top BMW. Ha ha ha. It's mostly those guyyyyy kinda cars, ya know with incredible built-in performance, turbo and horseyy whatever.

Ok ok, I know nuts about all this car thingy, I'm just in for the IMAGERY. Ooohhh right. As long as the car looks good, I'd fall head over heels for it. In built performance shouldn't be a bother. Coz you know, I know, women makes lousy drivers, so why would we wanna depend on much in-built performance when we'd just resort to doing 'em all LIVE. For all I know, when I finally get a driver's license, I'd pulled off a LIVE PERFORMANCE in the middle of ECP. Haha!

Anyhow, I did get a glimpse of some of the cars from the entrance. And they are seriously brilliant on looks. I wanna go inside the hall for some look-look-see-see session but I may end up so jakun I'd pass off as a wannabe. Ok wait, I AM a wannabe. And then there's those scantily-clad female models hovering around the cars as though they are major car fanatics. Which they probably are, I'd like to be more positive here. But do they have guys in speedos accompanying those pretty pretty cars? Maybe that will happen when Hillary Clinton becomes the next U.S president. Uhhh, no connection here. LOL.

Win, Lose or Draw

Well, things are really going downhill but I don't wanna bother to think about them so much. Coz I've learnt that nothing ever pays when you keep clinging on to whatever crap that has happened and has totally made it difficult for you to move on. See, that is the problem when you have experienced failure, the first time must have been a drudgery, too painful to bear. But subsequent ones would end up being deliberate attempts at making people look down on you. And you just don't wanna care. It's like a deadly disease. Hah.

So, you would have probably gotten my drift. Aaahhh, I'm gonna do badly for the As. Yes screw me but my fate has been sealed. Even with one more subject to go, I know more or less how I'm gonna fair for the entire exam. And it's nothing good, really. I'm left with trying to sit myself down and make amends with my Maker. I'd like to think I'm a wrecked mess but that's just a lame excuse.

Anyway, I've resorted to cracking my brains for a backup plan. I looked up the net and the fees for studies abroad are bloody exorbitant. Forget getting a cert, I won't even be able to raise enough funds for plane tickets. That does not mean I'm not gonna try for it right? Ha ha ha. I actually bothered, for the first time ever, to read through the RD Sweepstakes, filled up the relevant infos and stuff the thingy in the envelope provided and will be mailing it soon. I'm hoping to eventually win the $600,000 so that I can make use of the money for further education.

NOW TELL ME I'M GOING NUTS! Coz indeed I am. You wouldn't believe how far-fetched the sweepstakes thingy really are. I've had tons of them mailed to my household with my dad subscribing to RD, Time and National Geographic. Most of them comes with the usual standard procedure, an introductory offer for a particular book in order to qualify for a draw alongside a car or other stuffz. Still, they do have the envelope meant for those who do not wanna get the book (the option I'm going for), so for this, you only have to send back a couple or so of the forms given and be deprived of certain other benefits (for my case, I don't stand a chance to win a $75,000 Peugeot. Damn.).

It's funny how the forms always state that my household is the only few selected for any particular draw. It's even funnier coz me and my brother got the exact same offer (hokay, so it uses our names but it really is being paid for by my dad). Like what are the chances that two persons from the same household could be part of the selected few chosen for the draw? As in, how does that determine that we are really the elite of all elites? So, it is probably just a bloody gimmick. The reason why I'd always though those sweepstakes thingy is not worth taking part in. Only this time round, coz I am really desperate, I'm actually taking a few moment to send back whatever forms just so I can qualify for the draw. And it's crazy coz I really wanna win. That amount of money could more than fund for my further education man!

Ha ha ha.

First

This is crazy I know. The least I could do is to wait till the exam's fully over before starting on a new blog site. But I can't resist the temptation and it just so happens that I managed to find such a pretty layout. So everything just gotta fell into place. Haha. As for the old blog, think I'm gonna have it purged for good. *goodbye old blog*.