All In A Day

YO! Haha. I'm so reminded of Weevil from Veronica Mars. One badass I kinda adore. Lol.

Anyway, I was up early today, supposedly with the intention to buy Straits Times at one of the shops near my place - my usual Saturday routine, but I ended up getting distracted with breakfast (FOOD!).

Dad wanna head on down to Mustafa Centre to get stuffz. I definitely could not resist the opportunity to shop, DUH. What more, usually when we go shopping with dad, he'll pay for EVERYTHING. Kekekeke. So yeahh, I went on searching for new jog attire. Dri-fit t-shirts were in abundance but running pants...darn, either they are too long or too short (then those would be called SHORTS lah ye). I couldn't find any capris either. So I just settled for two tees. Red and yellow. For the record, that would be my fourth red jogging tee. I happen to feel extra alive wearing red. So yeahh...haha!

Ooohhh, I actually saw a hawwttt PINK tennis racket just now! O-M-G. It was so pretty laaaa. But whatever, I've got two tennis rackets collecting dust somewhere in my room, no point eyeing for the pink one. Haa. I had wanted to get a watch too, considering Mustafa sells them at a much lower price, but I ended up having to decide between a watch or a perfume. Obviously, I can't ask for both. So I settled for the perfume which I've been lusting for since two years ago.

After that, we went ahead for our usual grocery shopping. Tons of junk food and boxes of flavoured mints as well as frozen goodies. It's pretty much a coincidence that I could find Dr Pepper at the drinks aisle. I'd been wondering what it would taste like after seeing them on 90210 (cola with some sorta cherry flavour to it...not bad...).

Fell asleep in the cab all the way home. Shopping can get really tiring. Whahahaha!

West Side Story

I have this sudden cravings for sticky rice with thick slices of sweet and juicy ice-cold mangoes. I swear I'd never tried this seemingly yummy combo in my life before! Thus, I really have no idea why am I craving for 'em. I guess it's just those random moments when things are just running wild in my head. In this case, I do believe that all I could ever think about is food. Ha ha ha.

Gonna have to get to Jurong West early in the morning tomorrow. Again, again and again. I figure no matter how much I loathe the other end, I will, one way or another end up having to head down there for some reasons. If only I could make my trips there in a hot pink convertible beemer...that would be sweeettttt man! I won't even complain much. Except maybe lament over the extra ka-chings I'm gonna have to dish out just to get the car on the road. But ayy, I don't mind starving myself for that ya know. Kekekeke.

So for now, I'm just gonna have to rely on good ol' public transport. Where I have to plan so carefully my daily travel routine. Like I always make it a point to try to catch the "empty" train in order to avoid the squeeziness and unnecessary panic-induced jitters, just coz I was afraid that I couldn't alight at Chinese Garden due to the overwhelming amount of human beings at the door. Lets not forget the awful morning stench should I missed out on the empty trains. God, these people just do not take a bath in the morning man. Seriously dudes? If you are too lazy to get the water running down on you, PLEASE! get yourself some perfumes or something??? Bleahh.

The buses don't usually pose much of a problem to me, coz at both ends (i.e east side and west side), the buses are usually on time and hardly overcrowded. It was only this morning that I rode on one of the nastiest bus from Chinese Garden MRT. The bus was not even crowded. BUT, it was so bloody cold! It sure felt like I was stuffed inside a refrigerator. The journey usually take up about fifteen minutes, but today's one was like never ending. One of the worse bus rides ever.

I shall go to sleep now or I'd end up being late tomorrow. Nights!

Poetic Ammo

Whenever I'm trapped in this tide
When I've forgotten that there is you and I
When your persuasion is fighting in the blindfold
When I wear my bad moods to my mouth
You should...

Like a rose without it's thorns
Like a bird without a song
Like a fire without the flame
If there's a painless love
We wouldn't be the same

To show how much you mean to me
I'd give up my gravity
I'd walk the surface of the sea
To find where you would be

I'd breathe in water
I'd drown myself in you
I'd breathe in water
I'd dive myself in you
I'd breathe in water
If you ask me to

Somehow I feel so lost with a homeless heart
I've nowhere to run, I've nowhere to hide
When I'm missing you
But I chased the dark clouds from my eyes
Sent them away like butterflies
When I think about you

To show how much you mean to me
I've erased my memory
To walk the surface of the sea
To be where you would be

Go away loneliness
Please stop yelling my name out loud
You're not allowed
Go away wasted dreams
You never will come in my head
My mind's set
Go away far from here
Can't stand you beside me
Run as fast as you can
Don't look back at me

Go away desperation
Now's the time to leave me alone on my own
Go away old regrets
I never want to see you again
It's your end
Go away far from here
And back to where you come from
Run as fast as you can away from my home

I can't count stars in the sky
Or climb the mountains
I can't even swim all the seas
But I know absence is unfair
Nothing can replace what I miss

Like the north needs the south
The wind needs the clouds
And to all of these reasons of life
I need you to change the wrong
To become true
And to take me to where I belong

Coz I'm breathing far away from you
And every second feels like thousands more without you
I'm breathing for this love to live
Believe that one day life would take me there beside you

I'm here give me a glance
Been following you like a shadow
This is how I spend my time
Dreaming about our days tomorrow
Another day has gone by
Another moon another song
I can wait for you my love
Don't want to do any harm
Just trying to get to your attention

Sometimes I walk away
Coz I know that we can never be together
Sometimes I close my mind
I can't keep this love for myself any longer
Somehow I have to find the right time
To say that I want you to want me
Even in my dreams...

I'm tired of letting go
All that I've tried to have
I'm tired of wasting time
Looking up to the wrong stars
I do believe in life
And that everything is written
But life is not a book
With pages wide open

For every doubt you face
For every step you take
For choices that you make
Dreams aren't made to be erased

Give me true love in my life
A peace for mind
Save me from harm
Pull me back if I ever try to walk away
Don't let me stray

But to stand with you in a ring of fire
I'll forget the days gone by
I'll protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight

If your hopes scatter like a dust across your track
I'll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara
If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts
I'll hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away, I'll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders
With veils of silk and gold
When the shadows come and darken your heart
Leaving you with regrets so cold

Veils of mist
Covered kisses
Swear by the moon
I want you
Pearls of steam
And the dance begins
Free the heat
Make us stronger still

Precious hours
Fire's dying down
While the night gives way
To clear morning light
Perfumes grazing
The senses of our soul
A love that's true
Swear by the moon
I'll be here for you

Though I've been gone
Painting lines of destiny on my own
Tasting water from the sea of unknown
Go whenever the wind blows
The winter's here in my soul

Some things can't be erased from a paper
Blood cannot be replaced by water
Dreams that I have embraced
Can't cover the trace of my home

Can you see on my face
Come closer
Love cannot be disgraced by anger
Dreams that I have embraced
Can't cover the trace of my home

Darn...it's close to 3 a.m and I cannot sleep. Amazingly enough the Online Queen (a.k.a Imma) has disappeared somewhere. She's usually online till 4 a.m but today, she just decides to ditch the comp. So I've no one to accompany me. And so I went through a whole bunch of songs from Anggun. I'd typed out some parts of the lyrics that I love. Unfortunately, a whole bunch of emo stuffz. Yeah, like what do you expect at such late hours ayy? I do not necessarily swear by sad/emo songs but I love how Anggun make sad/emo songs so captivating. Read the whole bunch of lyrics above if you want to.

Rollercoaster Night

Last night was pretty bad. I wasn't feeling so well after I came back home from my outing with the cousin. Took a couple of pills after a looonnnnggg hot shower. I really thought I could just make myself stay awake like how I'd usually do after taking those pills. But somehow, yesterday's dosage made me terribly drowsy. Either I took some sorta super-pills or I was really down and out. So yeah, my initial plan to stretch the night longer in front of the comp was busted. Damn, there were just so many pics I'd wanted to upload! Said my goodnights to whoever I was chatting to last night. My head felt so heavy, I couldn't even get myself on my bed and before I knew it, I totally dozed off with my head on my desk. Woke up about an hour later and this time I really had to drag myself to get on my bed. Lights off, had some music plugged in my ears. I thought I'd be totally out till the next morning. But nooooo, I just hadta have a nightmare! I forgot what it's all about but I knew that the whole thing scared me shitless. I remembered jerking up in the middle of the night and STILL feeling drowsy. Wtf. Well, I managed to muster up some strength to turn on the ipod again, just so I won't feel so haunted by the nightmare with some music in my ears (I was listening to Raihan by the way). And what do you knowwww??? I had yet another strange dream! This one had me all the way till the sun is up. One hell of a weird night I had. I'm still feeling some remnants of whatever sickness I had from yesterday...feverish, parched throat. At least I don't feel woozy anymore.

Just A Phase

Mum is playing some old school songs by Fauziah Latiff really loud. The thing is, I always hear those songs more prominently being aired on the radio on weekends. So yeah, it sure feels like as if the weekends are already here. Haha! And indeed, it's gonna be a super long weekend coz of chinese new year celebration. Exciting much ayyy.

I surprised myself today by waking up automatically at around eight in the morning. Seriously?! Three weeks ago, I would have never been able to do it. I guess the whole waking-up-at-five-in-the-morning for the past three weeks has drastically altered my bodyclock. Though the first two weeks were really hard to get by, I do think that I am starting to get the hang out of a "structured timetable" all over again. Oddly enough, it made me feel really good. It's like I have something to look forward to every morning. Very much unlike those days when I'd only wake up at around noon (my earliest would be 11 am) and then just let time lull away in complete oblivion during the day before setting myself in for a very long night in front of the comp or what have you. And then the cycle repeats.

These past few weeks too, I've been embroiled in some deep thinking. I thought that I could never set my goals straight. Not just focusing on one single aspect, I am talking about my life in general. It's not easy to put a stronghold over the decisions you make. It's definitely tougher to act on them. Whatever decisions you make, they rely too much on the things that are going on around you. And you wonder why you have to make decisions in the first place. It's like when you decide to be a somebody or do something, no matter how much you will yourself to make it happen, something out there are just bound to turn everything upside down. Well, even if it does not totally disrupt the entire framework you've came up with, it will definitely invoke questions within yourself. Lack of conviction, guilt-tripping, obligatory notions, etc.

It can be tiring to keep explaining yourself. Or for me, I always find it hard to explain anything at all, for I find it difficult to convey my thoughts into meanings. I'd like to think that everything is written. That things can come about through sheer happenstance. But sometimes, I think I will myself too hard to believe in all of my unrealistic ambitions. I scare myself coz I think that I could never afford to make it happen. And then I am afraid of the influences around me. Of things that came upon by chance. Of uncertainties. Sudden changes. Missed opportunites. Practically everything that revolves around the possibilities of disrupting what I've always had in mind. So unpredictable...

Random

I am trying to think of what to type about. Yet again, I'm coming up with nothing. It's really frustrating. I think I've been doing way too many photo entries that it has somewhat blocked my brain from pouring out words so easily. They say a picture speaks a thousand words. But in my case, a picture only means that my word power is gonna shrink by at least a thousand. Just look at the bombastic amount of pictures I've been uploading! Woe is those picture entries.

Well, let me just think slowly hokay.

For one, my mum called in some sorta housekeeper to clean up our house tomorrow. Exactly what I need man. My room's been in a huge mess for so long. It just doesn't help that I've been feeling so unmotivated to clean up my room. There are just too many cluttered stuffz and I really don't know where to start. Think I may need to get rid of a whole bunch of things that I no longer need. Bleahh. I used to make it a point to clean up my room once a week, but that whole routine has somewhat lost its place in my mind. It's not like as though I was feeling lazy or anything. I just felt wayyy too comfortable cooping myself up in my room despite the mess. Hah. So for tomorrow, I just think that it would be good enough if my bookshelf and the space under my bed be cleared. Think I can handle the remaining part of my room on my own. At least I hope I don't forget. Lol.

And...right...I can't think no more. Sheesh....

Great Minds

How funny, Imma and I typed out the same statement simultaneously. Great minds thinks alike ayy. LOL. I'm trying to think of what else to type about. But my mind is screwed. Tomorrow maybe. Bye!

5th January 2009: GM + Syidah

A Little Update

Using my dad's comp now. My comp sux. Somehow the internal organs get so screwed up whenever I open up too many programmes at any one time. Totally need to send it for repair soon man.

Like I am so missing out on new episodes of a whole bunch of tv series. Damn. I especially wanna continue with 90210 man. I swear that is the bestest tv progg I've ever watched. I thought Gossip Girl was awesome but 90210 is so much better. It has a sorta Sweet Valley feel to it. Not to mention, the girls are awesomely hawtttt. Plus an entire fleet of swoon-worthy cars. OMG. Ok wow, something's not right with me. Pretty girls and hot cars captures my attention. Shouldn't I be looking out for the guys instead? Lol. But seriouly laaaa. I really really dig 90210 even though I was a bit slow to find out about it. Hah.

Anywho, I've got some new pics to update. From monday's GM plus Syidah outing. Hell yeahh, we actually managed to meet up at the beginning of this year. All five of us. Which is quite an improvement. Considering last year's countless failed attempts to get all five of us to hang out together. It was always a duo (usually me and Imma) or a threesome meetup and the occasional fours, last year. I swear there were times when I felt supremely frustrated coz it's just so impossible to have our schedules to be in sync. Something something just gotta crop up for everyone. Bleahh. So whatever, 2009 has been a good start. Hopefully we can keep it this way. Plus we still have yet to have our picnic at ecp. Very soon yo!

Yesterday was spent at One Fullerton with Imma and her dearest Botagged. Initially I thought that I was gonna be too zonked out from work that I'd probably end up dozing off when I met Imma. But nooo. We took countless shiok sendiri pics using her webcamm. And I looooveee the pic quality mann. It's so nice despite the lack of effects and whatnot. I really thought that time was moving so slow yesterday. In a feel good way that is. We hung out until the comp's batt nearly died out and then made our way to Marina's arcade. The usuals. Haha.

Alrighteyy, I'm off to meet my cousin at the lib! Byez!

Custard Jam Biscuits

Chapter One

I really think that new years should be celebrated with a week-long holiday to go along with it. Just don't make sense to get so hyped up on the eve of NY, only to sober up (get ready for school/work all that jazz) super fast on NY itself and thennnnnn, second day of the new year, it's back to business for everyone. It's just so screwed up. Sheesh. My resolutions for this new year is to fulfill my unfulfilled resolutions of yesteryears. A resolution within a multitude of resolutions. Seems so bleak ayy. Haha.

So, on the first day of the new year, I headed down to the stadium for my usual jog session. I have to say, I was really impressed! Coz I saw A LOT of new faces. I don't know if they were there just to fill up their holiday or they were there to kickstart their new year's resolution.Though oddly enough, most of the stadium regulars decided to give themselves some sorta well-deserved break coz I saw only a few of them out embracing the tracks on NY.

Alright, I'm dreading morning jog tomorrow. Coz I'm gonna have to accompany my cousin to town, so I just have to bring forth my evening jog earlier in the morning. I hope I can wake up mannn. It's been ages since I last stepped out of the house before seven in the morning. Hah.

From Me To You