F.R.I.E.N.D.S

A few days back my bestfriend asked if I'd wanna have some sorta gift exchange in celebration of our five years of friendship. Then it hit me, like O-M-G to that. Coz it has been quite awhile for us in this friendship and I can't believe I never had the idea to wanna celebrate it, much less realize that it has been FIVE years. Wow.

Come to think of it, we have been through quite a lot, what more, with much differences in our backgrounds, instead of having it drive us apart, we got closer. And it is really the kind of reality she brought into my life that made me look at situations around me differently. I tried to be less judgemental, be more accepting and look at things way beyond superficiality. In one way or another, I have achieved that but I am still learning. Admittedly, I have not totally open up but I'd gladly consider the friendship a stepping stone for me to understand myself and hoping that we can see through the future with each other side by side.

So anyway, luckily she pointed it out and so I agreed to the gift exchange. We'd cap our gift limit to 30 bucks each. So now I am still trying to figure out what would be the best bestfriend gift for her. I am thinking of getting something personalised. Maybe a calendar with our photo on it, a jar of homemade cookies and something else that she can put on her desk at her workplace. I'll try to figure it out soon. Heh.

And on the topic of friendships, it dawned on me too that my frienship with another bestfriend from my primary school has reached its ELEVENTH YEAR. And all the same, I've been rather ignorant of the timeline. How could I ever forget all those silly moments we had back in primary school. Staying behind after supplementary classes only to mess around at the sandy patch on the field, building sandcastles and decorating them with twigs and dry leaves. And what about hanging out at the void deck munching on tons of junkfood whilst talking about random nothings. I could still recall all those moments as though it only happened yesterday.

Gosh, I am getting all nostalgic. But it's only appropriate I guess, with the new year coming and all that. And this space is suitable enough to bring forth how I feel. Words can't describe how much I appreciate having friends around me. And I'm not those expressive sort. Nope. I don't usually act on impulse, even giving a hug can be pretty awkward and trying to comfort someone who's going through a tough time make me see thousands of blindspots ahead of me. Only because I'd get a little too uncertain or that I don't wanna say something that could come out all wrong and leave me in remorse afterwards and also the trouble I have in trying to string up words properly for verbal use. That explains why I can "talk" better in my blog, sms and through msn. I dunno...it's inherent somehow. But what I lack in words and expression, I try to make up for it by being there at least. No matter how redundant my presence may be. It's the least I could do.

As quoted from the numerology thingy for myself, "Friends may be few in number, but you are very close to them and once friendships are made, they often last a lifetime". And I'd definitely like to keep it that way. That said, I cherish all my friends a lot. You know who you are. Heh. And part of my resolution for 2008 is to keep ya all as a part of my life for many many more years to come.